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Taylor Stevens La Dispute meets More Than Life. This is such a beautiful rad song and I can't wait for an album.
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I tried to capture it on paper
I tried to lock it up
Now the city calls me stranger
has me bottled up
I was looking for a way
To keep the sun on your skin, and the song of the wind
And the scent of your breath on my skin in a kind
Now I'm looking for a place for my failure to hide

Dear mother: Save me from the monster I've become
Like that night when you came into my room
And I begged:
I could really use some help here!
I can't do this on my own.
She said: “Find yourself”
And I replied:

What if I'm afraid of what I'll find?
What if I'm afraid of my own mind?

I lost my mind. I lost the fight
I'm so afraid of what I'll find (2x)

From the room where the light splits
To the gates where our guards went down
From the day that your hips shift
To the day we release what's bound
Pack my heart in your suitcase
Take it with you over distance
Reflect the plan through a cold chase
To make the echo less distant

I'll let my hair grow
I promise to leave these vices out of sight
From the day I let my heir go
To the battle between promise and lies
But no matter how it ends
I'll hold you in my heart. I'll hold you in my voice.
I'll hold you in the things I'll keep on building

But I'm afraid I'll be kicked back
Be disconnected from the mind by the heart
To see the moment when your strings snap
Save yourself, die young and always love hard!

Love hard!
Come kiss my lips and say goodbye

So you can just start again


released November 1, 2015



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